Faith in the Fallouts

After it felt like everything fell apart, I realized I needed a space to reflect, heal, and find faith again. Now there is the obvious journaling, which I do, but sometimes writing it all down with pen and paper seems like my words are empty and pointless. For this, my prayer is that people will know they are not alone when they are stuck, and it feels like the world is moving on without them.

A Moment that Changed Me

I remember the exact day when things started to crumble. This is dramatic, though, because it was less than four months ago. Except that I know four years from now, I will still remember that day just as well as I do now. My entire sense of security was shaken, along with my hope for a bright, loving future. Lost does not even begin to describe how I felt. I was angry and hopeless. Sometimes I still am. What I am not unsure of now is who I am, even though there are pieces of my life missing, ones that I thought I could forever count on.

Maybe I was just naive, but I believed I could count on these pieces forever because he told me I could count on him and that he would always be there. To whoever is reading this, if you take away one thing from this first post and only one, please let it be this: People are going to suck, people are going to hurt you in ways you never believed they could. The wrong people are bound to leave. So count on God before you count on people, because if you don’t, He will quickly show you that is what you should have done in the first place.

It was in the quietest, most broken place I had ever been left, that I realized faith is not about having all of the answers, even when you constantly beg for them. It is about holding on to the truth that God will carry you through anything. A wise friend recently told me this: “God gives His hardest battles to His strongest warriors.” So keep holding on and choose to believe there is a path forward. Just take it one step at a time ,and as the same very wise friend told me, “Embrace the suck.”

Why This Blog Exists

Faith in the Fallouts is not just my story, it is a place for reflections, lessons, and chapters from the memoir I am writing about hope, healing, and trust. In this I will share:

-Personal stories of growth and setbacks

-Honest reflections on faith and life

-Moments of beauty and light in the midst of hardships

My hope and prayer for this space is that it can offer encouragement to anyone navigating the fallouts in their own life.

A Note to My Readers

Thank you for being here. Even if you are just passing through, I hope these words remind you that faith can survive even the hardest moments, and that you are not alone in your walk.

Stay with me as I write through life’s messes, find light in the cracks, and discover hope one day at a time.